Category: Journal

December 2013

I am so grateful for my wonderful loving family that knows when to listen and when to push.

Yesterday was the first day of the rest of my life. So is today. I’m trying to live in the present you see. Feel the power of now and live up to my full potential.

Magical moments seem scarce and hard to come by sometimes. This is simply because we forget how to see the magic that is constantly going on around us and flowing through us.

I feel that it is time to start remembering and forget about my forgetfulness, my tiredness.

Wayne Dyer has inspired me to remember this truth. I speak of an inspiration to go within, into my spirit, like the word suggests, but so many of us overlook. I have decided to change the way I see and in order to do so I will have to change my mind. This is the sole way to solve a problem and I plan to overcome mine. Spiritually.

I came to this realisation and turning point beautifully. Sitting under the night sky and looking out over my hometown Skelmersdale from the vantage point of the beacon I began to see the place I was born and grew up in under a new light. It was not a bad place, it was my attitude that was bad.

Blissfully immersed in the wise words of the aforementioned teacher I experienced my first moment of true magic in years. As I returned home and entered the garden I sat on the beach to hear the rest of the lesson I had been so deeply absorbed in. I felt truly happy. Peaceful. Free from all negativity and filled with positivity and wonderment.

As one tape came to an end I saw a shooting star in the crisp and clear November sky. What a beautiful coincidence I thought to myself. Moments later I saw another. This when I remembered that coincidences do not exist, but magic does. Our universe fits together perfectly, It is the uni-verse, one song. Fundamentally, all is one and nothing is separate.

I am not separate. I am not alone. Life is found in layers and the nature of life is to grow. I am life and from the deepest layer I will grow.

August 2015

Experiencing the self and trusting it unconditionally is key for happiness.

When we have realised our true being we can then gain perspective on all the other layers of life. We are no longer a slave to the fickle nature of the mind, we get into the driving seat, which means we can put on cruise control, ride the flow of nature and see through the illusions of reality. We are anchored in truth. We are rooted in peace and bursting with satisfaction and fulfilment. We are established in being, while performing action (yogastha kuru karmani).

In order to maintain the field of being within sight, it is important to trust. Doubts can arise, which may overshadow the peace of our innocent and natural awareness. These doubts can become stronger if believed and manifest into fear and other negative emotions.

Trusting keeps us open and allows us to experience love. Love and bliss are the most essential qualities of existence. They are the first feelings that arise as we come back from transcending, from contacting the source of our being. They are the fabric of reality, the building blocks of life.

“Love is trust. It has no expectations. It is trusting the divine.” – Yogi Tea

Doubt is a barrier to love. To dispel doubt we must trust the divine, the divine nature of our inner truth, our simplest form of awareness. From this place we can fill our lives with love and bliss. Trust is the key to happiness and fulfilment.

Trust is love…

August 2015

We all know that our thoughts are immensely powerful and that we have the capacity to fulfil our desires. The problem is that most of us have never learned how to think.

A thought on the gross level of the mind is a weak thought. The key to correct thinking is settling the mind down so that we are conscious of our own awareness, our simplest form of being, and to gently project thought from this subtle level. Learning to operate from this space gives our thought immense power and gifts us the power to fulfil our desires.

Starting from ground zero when it comes to thought and action enables us to see how the mind, intellect and emotions function.

My recent experiences have shown me that when we are in this settled state of awareness, of pure being, we can better understand the inner workings of our own being. From the semi-transcendent state, or sanyama level, a subtle thought can be introduced. This faint idea gives rise to an impulse of desire, which then changes into a feeling or sensation in the body. This feeling or sensation then generates a thought on the gross level.

For success in life it is vital to think and act from the subtle sanyama level. To recognise our subtle thoughts, emotions and desires before they lose their power at the gross level of the mind, which cannot be fully trusted. The mind is too distant from the truth of our pure being. The mind is prone to distorting the true nature of reality.

We can trust from a transcendental level. From the vantage point of this safehouse we can clearly see how faint impulses arise from the simplest form of awareness, which turn into feelings or emotions, which in turn give rise to thought.

Given the nature of the mind and the fact that it has been conditioned heavily by the belief systems of our world today, allowing the mind to govern our lives is foolish and will inevitably result in selling yourself short in terms of your potential as a human being.

The mind is unable to fathom the vastness and limitless power of your true Self. Therefore, when we experience the real value of our inner nature it can be difficult to know what to think, how to understand it, and how to put it into words.

As a result, it is very easy for doubt to creep in. The mind tries to rationalise our experience and this can lead to the experience being overlooked. We doubt the simplicity of our true nature and the immediate attainability of fulfilment and happiness. Thus, the mind regains control and we fall back into the trap of unnecessary suffering.

In this sense, when we are servants to the mind rather than servants to our Self our potential is limited. The mind is the limiting factor that prevents us from experiencing the joy of being our true Self.

In my case, doubt is the primary means by which my mind tries to undermine my being and gain the upper hand.

I therefore vouch to doubt the doubter. Trust is key…